Message Request

24″ x 18″ . Watercolor . 2022

This is my first “most beautiful inkblot”. Please zoom in, otherwise it can look like barf.

The initial reaction for “Pus Seeking‘s” original inkblot was fear of destroying something so intrinsically beautiful. On the contrary, this one got me so fired up that I jumped right into painting without any plan. Totally uncharacteristic and counter-instinctive. The end result was naturally disjointed, an incohesive bunch of ravens. “Message Request” felt like an appropriate title because I was waiting for some sort of sign or event to conclude it all. Wuuuut? Into the drawer it went. 

My life has always been unusual, but after this painting, it became even more so. E.g. I’ve always joked that Odin lent me his horse, because my relationship with Arnie is too supernatural to define with mere words. Maybe Odin has really been helping out all along, because once I left this painting in limbo, all the birds started making their presence known. They remind me that they’re watching too, in perfectly timed photos, or by bulls-eye shitting on my head or open bag! Another example happened in Norway. During a particularly low moment, I suddenly found a white feather by my shoe. Then on the last day, while feeling particularly happy, I found a black one by my window. Of course there’s always a logical explanation, but it still makes me go “hmmmmmm”.

Now that things are a little clearer, it’s like my 2022 self took a Time Machine to tell my 2018 self that I would be needing this now. So what is the message?

BE STILL so that another bird can fill your bag again with epic shit.

Though not obvious, it was completely nuked inside. Woohoo!